Great! Now that I am getting a grip on the cancer challenge, it is time to address the AFIB. Since I still have vertigo, the nurse practitioner prescribed a lower dose of my heart medicine. My BP was 82/40 and she felt that might have something to do with my vertigo. Sounded fine to me because I am on a roll to get rid of all the challenges that have developed over the last couple of years. Well, she did not order the right dosage and I went from 100 mg to 25 mg. This sent me into a tailspin of tacycardia and AFIB and the Merlin monitor people were calling me everyday to express concerns over my heart rate. HOHUM.
I had a meeting with the cardiologist and the pace maker folks and they decided 75 mg. I told them 50 mg would probably be fine and my plan is to keep on my current health regime and improve my heart function. The doctor was cool with my recommendation and also apologetic for the crazy runaround I have been getting regarding a life or death diagnosis. He said, "Well, I guess (they) got the cancer or you would be dead now. Or at least very sick." Gotta love the bed side manner, eh?
I haven't done anything earth-shattering, with my second chance, so to speak. I mainly "farm" and do research on seed prices and growing techniques, there is alot of information and a plethora of resources out there, which is encouraging. Getting my hands dirty is therapy for the soul and quite honestly, I am in a strange place. If I had to analyze it, I guess the appropriate acronym would be PTSS. Post trumatic stress, like waiting for the other foot to fall. You would think I would be numb by now.
After all the twists and turns my emotions and thoughts have taken, I have had to internalize most of my thoughts and do some real introspection. Time will sort things out, I am sure. It's just that I can't go back to the "old way" of existing and I don't have a solid footing on the new path, yet. Of course, everything will be fine, or not, and that's one thing you can count on.
It is taking me awhile to get out and socialize. The "new me" is a little shy and I'm not quite sure I am really interested in the activities that were part of the "old me". Right now, I am playing with Ayden (school starts soon) and just taking time to heal. I am missing friends and conversation. Maybe next week I will venture out for some quality time and take me for a test drive.
I had a meeting with the cardiologist and the pace maker folks and they decided 75 mg. I told them 50 mg would probably be fine and my plan is to keep on my current health regime and improve my heart function. The doctor was cool with my recommendation and also apologetic for the crazy runaround I have been getting regarding a life or death diagnosis. He said, "Well, I guess (they) got the cancer or you would be dead now. Or at least very sick." Gotta love the bed side manner, eh?
I haven't done anything earth-shattering, with my second chance, so to speak. I mainly "farm" and do research on seed prices and growing techniques, there is alot of information and a plethora of resources out there, which is encouraging. Getting my hands dirty is therapy for the soul and quite honestly, I am in a strange place. If I had to analyze it, I guess the appropriate acronym would be PTSS. Post trumatic stress, like waiting for the other foot to fall. You would think I would be numb by now.
After all the twists and turns my emotions and thoughts have taken, I have had to internalize most of my thoughts and do some real introspection. Time will sort things out, I am sure. It's just that I can't go back to the "old way" of existing and I don't have a solid footing on the new path, yet. Of course, everything will be fine, or not, and that's one thing you can count on.
It is taking me awhile to get out and socialize. The "new me" is a little shy and I'm not quite sure I am really interested in the activities that were part of the "old me". Right now, I am playing with Ayden (school starts soon) and just taking time to heal. I am missing friends and conversation. Maybe next week I will venture out for some quality time and take me for a test drive.